Dec. 8th, 2013. The day our life changed forever!
We had been “going for it” for 2 months. The first month I went a little crazy…I cut out drinking, coffee, raw fish, unpasteurized cheese and was living like a pregnant woman JUST IN CASE we got pregnant. I also had a OB-gyn appointment that month with my new and super awesome doctor. At the appointment I explained to her what I was doing and she told me to “stop it.” Yep! She told me I was putting too much pressure on myself and too much focus around getting pregnant to actually “get” pregnant. She told me to just do life as normal and not worry about it and then I’ll be relaxed and I’ll have an easier time conceiving. She also told me to make sure we have sex on days 10,12,14 & 16 of my cycle (counting day 1 as period start day). So, after that appointment I went to meet my mom and my dear friend Barbara who was in town visiting Seattle and we had some oysters and a glass of wine! I follow directions well!
After that my husband and I just enjoyed life and I’m not going to lie, we had sex every single day that month just to really put it out there and go for it. It’s the most fun I’ve ever had making anything in my entire life! (Thanks honey)!!! Also yes, I did those silly shoulder stand yoga poses almost all the time after or I would just lay in bed for at least 15-20 minutes to give the sperm the best chance it had to do what it needed to do. It may or may not have made a difference but I did it anyway and if anything it often just cracked us both up (because I looked ridiculous).
Fast forward from period start date Nov. 8th to Sunday, Dec. 8th. There I was pushing myself to get on the elliptical machine despite how weirdly tired I was. I was also extremely thirsty so I chugged a huge glass of water then started my work out. About 15 minutes into my cardio I got this intense wave of nausea and dizziness. I had to stop, get off and sit down. I told my husband it must have been from the water chugging. Oh sure because that would make a lot of sense right? Not so much. My husband had been secretly wondering for a few days noticing how oddly tired I was and that I had an insane hamburger craving that week and even ate the entire burger and bun (extremely unusual for me). Not to mention the handful of very extreme emotional reactions I had had that week to things. So he asked me about my period. I said I was one day late. He looked at me and said “do you want to take a test?” With in a second my heart skipped a beat. “Yes!” So, he went to the store and bought us a pack of tests. My nerves were going crazy, they were all over the place. I wanted more than anything for the test to be positive but I also remembered my doctor telling me this could take up to a year to happen and that was normal.
Here goes nothing I thought and peed on the stick. I shut the bathroom door and waited in the kitchen with my husband. I was too nervous to go look so he decided to do it. This I will never forget…He took me in his arms, wiped my nervous tears away and said in the most calming, assuring and loving way, “No matter what it says, we’re in this together. We will get through anything good or bad. No matter what it’s going to be okay and I love you and am with you. No matter what we will have a baby even if we have to adopt. It’s going to be okay either way.” He meant it and I believed him. This calmed me and I said okay let’s find out. A moment later he emerged from the bathroom holding the stick to face him, looking down at it. My heart stopped and the world seemed to pause for what felt like an eternity. Then, he looked up at me and said, “Let me see the box…I want to make sure I know what the signs mean…” and turned the stick outward at me and I FREAKED OUT!!! And yes, showed him the box to reassure both of us!
Screams of joy, hugging and jumping up and down, tears of happiness and excitement went on for a while. Then…I had to double check, of course! So, we took one more test to confirm and then we made the best phone calls ever to our parents and immediate family. My mother’s first words were “I knew it! Every time I hung up the phone from you this week I told dad, “Sarah’s pregnant and she has no idea.” Never underestimate the power of a mom!!!
As exciting and happy as all of this is, what my husband told me before going to look at the test, he told me many more times after because things do happen in the beginning of pregnancy. It doesn’t always stick, people have miscarriages, life happens. But, I knew that no matter what, we were in it together in love and support and that I would be okay.
And now the pregnancy journey really begins!